So before I get into the first week of the school I would just like to say, yes I am writing this post 3 weeks later than it should've been posted... life is getting absolutely crazy here and there is some major heart surgery going down here. So I apologize for falling behind on posting. Already. But anyways :)
Here we go, week one!
The first week of school went really really well. Tuesday September 3rd was registration day, so I moved in and got all settled. That night we had our first worship session of the semester. Wow. In that moment I began to realize how transforming the next few months are going to be. The next day began our weeks worth of teaching and worship sessions. The topic of the first week was Hearing Gods Voice. Our speaker was Mark Virkler which I just would like to say, wow. He is absolutely incredible!
(I apologize, you might notice that I am saying wow a lot... it describes my life right now.)
Something I have always been frustrated about in my relationship with the Father is hearing His voice. From what I can remember no one ever really explained to me how to hear Gods voice. Don't you think in a relationship, communication is key? And not just one way communication like me pouring all my life problems to God and then just leaving it. No, Holy Spirit wants to connect with us on a personal level and wants to speak to us right here and now. This is how relationship works. So as you could imagine I was quite excited to hear what Mark Virkler had to say.
Now God doesn't just speak in one way, but Mark explained one of the main ways to hear Gods voice. 2 way journaling, using the 4 keys Mark taught us. (I wrote out the 4 keys a little later) Its amazing how God has spoken to me through this.
(Here is the link to Marks blogs if you are interested in learning more about that. Which I highly encourage you to check it out. It has radically transformed my journey with the Father.)
Since the day we were taught the 4 keys and journaling, I've started to journal every morning. It has changed my perspective and attitude as I start my day. I mean how could starting your morning by talking to the Heavenly Father go wrong?
One thing Gods been speaking to me about has been trust and allowing myself to completely surrender EVERYTHING . I found this interesting because in my mind, trust is not something I struggle with. However God has been showing me some areas of my life, where I have not trusted. Or I've kinda trusted, but not completely. So this is something God is working on in me.
Okay time to be vulnerable and share some of my personal struggle when it comes to hearing Gods voice and trust.
So in 2 way journaling, you use the 4 keys which are...
1) Quiet yourself in the Lords presence and tune in to flow (flow = Holy Spirit)
2) Look for vision as you pray/fix your eyes on Jesus
3) Gods voice often comes as spontaneous thoughts
4) Write out/record the flow of thoughts and visions.
One of the things I struggled with (and still do) with 2 way journaling is when I tune into flow, I always question whether it really is from Holly Spirit or if it is just my own thought process.
Now when you journal and its concerning a bigger situation (like a life changing decision or something... you catch my drift;) you bring your journaling to 2 or 3 people you trust whom you look up to in the Lord and get them to confirm it is from Holy Spirit. However even with the small broad questions I ask Holy Spirit, I find myself doubting. Like "oh this is popping up in my head only because that's what I want to hear" or "this sounds exactly like my own thought process".
Again Holy Spirit is like yo Shayla let's address this. I've begun to realize that God has actually been speaking to me my whole life and I just didn't know it was Holy Spirit. And because I didn't know it was Holy Spirit I just gave the credit to myself and my own thought process. So, because I have been giving all the credit to my own thought process, I haven't allowed Holy spirit to work in me, and I have blocked myself from intimate relationship with the Father.
Since I received this revelation it's like a retraining reprogramming process for my head space. And this is one of the areas of trust I believe I need to work on, with the help of Holy Spirit.
God has encountered me in such an amazing way this week, and this was only week one. So flippin excited for what Gods got planned next :)
I hope this somewhat made sense. There is so much processing going on sometimes I find it difficult to type it all out in a way that's understandable to people other than myself. :)
Second weeks blog post is on the way fam so stay tuned!
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