He Says, I Will.

In my life as of late, I've seen character traits in myself that sadden my heart.  Traits that if I do not work on now, will affect my future.  There was one day (many actually, but this one in particular) where I couldn't lift my eyes up to see past the present, and what beauty would come out of the trials that I am currently experiencing.  

My wonderful Mother saw the way I was fighting, struggling to stay on top and in control of the situation.  She gave me this analogy.  

"Shayla, look at your life as a garden.  There are lots of beautiful flowers and fruits in your garden.  But along with the beauty, there are some weeds.  Right now, together we are working on pulling out some weeds.  But we're not going to just chop them off at the soil, we're going to pull out the roots too.  Because when you're old enough and ready, when Dad and I send you off, we want to send you as weed free as possible."  That clicked for me.

 I still, however, felt overwhelmed at these problems that I needed to deal with.  At a place where I questioned if I would make it through the valley to see the light of another day.

I've heard this song before, but never really listened to the lyrics before.  When I stopped to really listen to catch what the song was saying, it seemed as if God was saying, "Shayla. I'm here, I love you, and you're not alone.  I have always been here with you, and I will always be."

God used the song, I Will by Citizen Way, to tell me, that He's got me.  He will carry me.  No matter how I feel about the situation.

When the shadow won't leave

When the battle won't stop

And every breath that you breathe

Takes all that you got

When you wonder if you're always

Gonna feel this way

Hear the Lord of Heaven say

I will hold you when you're breaking

Like a Father and a Friend

And I will carry you through the darkness

'Til we see the sun again

So rest your head and cry your tears

Know that I am with you here

When you can't lift that weight

Believe me when I say, I will.

I know you're feeling overwhelmed

Before the day even begins

But I can see beyond the now

This is not how your story ends

And when you're at your weakest

Oh I've never been more strong

So let me be the one you're leaning on

I will dry your tears

I will calm your fears

I will show you how you're beautiful, beautiful

I will walk with you

On the raging sea

And I will never leave

When there's a door that you can't open

When there's a war you can't win

I will.  I will.  I will.

I'm not perfect.  I still stumble.  But I know that when I do, He says "I will."